Life as a Tumbleweed turned 4 today!
Somehow I can’t believe that there are any heights that can’t be scaled by a man who knows the secrets of making dreams come true. This special secret, it seems to me, can be summarized in four Cs. They are curiosity, confidence, courage, and constancy, and the greatest of all is confidence. When you believe in a thing, believe in it all the way, implicitly and unquestionable.
--― Walt Disney Company (via thestuffoflegend)
'When you believe in something, believe in it all the way.' WORD.
Don’t compare your behind-the-scenes with everyone else’s highlight reel.
--some famous person I can’t recall..
I feel a fire
I see a flame set me alight
Bring me desire bottled up tight
Like caging the ocean
Dousing the sun, download the sky
Bring me emotion bottled up tight
Had this on loop for 24 hours now. Just… so many feels. What’s happening, Universe??
Aha Moments at 4am
I found the answer to my sleep issue. It’s been swimming in my brain all this time, but it hasn’t surfaced until a little while ago when I randomly voiced it to myself.
It’s so hard for me to sleep because I really don’t want to sleep.
The only reason I lie down is because I was taught by society that upon a certain hour it’s what I should do. But ever since May ended, all I really wanted to do was keep going on my adventures. I started off fighting sleep because there was so much I wanted to see online, or catch up with in my To-do List. When I do lie down it’s always with a tired body and a raging brain - raging so hard that it can’t even tell the body to shut down and rest, because it in itself couldn’t.
Thus the brain subconsciously told the body that it prefers not to sleep, and the body, poor thing, listened and attempted to deliver. The result: full-blown insomnia.
The problem is I’m now at a point where the brain has completely let go of any control in this aspect, and it basically just waits for the body to signal it for sleep. But since the body knows that the brain doesn’t want to sleep, it holds off on that too. So it becomes a waiting game of which gives in first in sheer exhaustion. After three months of this, it’s pretty wearisome.
But then I still don’t want to sleep. Yes I need pills like Sleepasil now, but what I really want is a pill that would keep me awake. I even have these fantasies where people could just plug into power outlets like electronics, and keep functioning while recharging. That way we don’t need to turn ourselves “off”.
Honestly though, I miss sleep. The good, fulfilling sleep like I used to have. I just have to actively pursue it now.
I’ve made up my mind
I’m gonna do my 3-week Solo Cambodia + Thailand Backpacking in December. At the moment though I still need around $340 to meet my minimum budgetary needs.
So, any suggestions as to how I can do this? :P
The great thing about
is how they fade.
How after a while
they cease to shine
and no longer captivate you.
But the problem with this
is it refuses to fade.
It shows no signs of
even after all this time.
Months have gone and you
still walk blindly
in the glare of its
Do you cover your eyes?
Baler, Aurora. taken with a Canon Rebel G and expired Fujifilm Superia 400. June 2013 Baler has effectively become one of my happy places. It’s best known for its adrenaline-pumping surf, but I wha…
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